um hey

probably a weird time for me to make an entry considering i had a really bad panic today

i was getting hit by all kinds of stress . some over personal things some not,. all of it is stuff im not willing to discuss but . then again today had been a big solo internal battle because i decided not to communicate these troubles with anyone

that stress was at its peak a few hours ago though, and im a little better now. this weird feeling is still lingering a bit but i can honestly manage for the meantime

anyways i suppose i have like other things to talk about

im nearing the end of my semester and like. i have a programming project + more math concepts to brush up on before i take like end-of-term exams so. its a bit heavy what im going through right now

i started working on this C++ project today and. i think this is like the earliest ive ever started a project for this programming course when comparing to a deadline tbh im doing this with 9 days left. and for previous projects id start with like 5 days left 4 days left.. i guess thats like special and, i got one step on my project handout out of like 4 steps done so, thats something im proud of rightnow

and then my math stuff is like unbelievably easy lately im seriously just not worried about that course at all.. math weirdly has always been my strong suit and idk im kinda secured feeling (hoping that feeling lasts)

but I DONT CARE ACTUALLY OK TOMODACHI LIFE LIVING THE DREAM CAME OUT AND IVE BEEN PLAYIBNG IT AND IM MAKING ALL OF MY FAVORITE CHARACTERS I STILL HAVE MORE FAVORITE CHARACTERS TO MAKE BUT AHHAHAHBBFBWE MY BABIES ARE HERE

i made like. ohmygod so i made mokouuu (i already had kaguya from the demo (talking about touhou here)) i made yuuri from girls last tour ok i made CHITO from girls last tour ,, and then i made ena from dream bbq and. i made Froggy from ena dream bbq and like konata from lucky star .... and moony from like the ENA animations and then i made taski maiden from ena dream bbq ... im gonna make so much more ok i already have stuff lined up. like i wanna make randal from ranfren and then also like more touhous and. WAIT MAYBE PICAYUNE DREAMS CHARACTERS TOO WOOWOW THAT WOULD BE AWESOME

ahem

no but i love that game so much ... but it came out at the worst time ever ...... end of semester for a lot of people .. and everyone's busy ..... poo