hiiiiiii

so. i can't believe it's december dude what even is that

2025 truly fast as hell year and. at this point i'm coming to the conclusion that. it's been kind of an unfulfilling year in some ways but also very fulfilling in other ways

that feels like every year though ,, honestly ,, or. in other words i guess that's kinda really just life lol

no matter

anyways um. i don't look forward to this month usually because it's when my worry for college finals becomes greater nd stuff

this time around i have to balance studying for finals and warming up to materials for my upcoming programming fundamentals ii course that i have next term

which. yk that's one upside i'm looking forward to in 2026. the fact that once i'm done with my transfer path courses, that will be my laaaast year in this community college ... and i seriously do not want to fail what i have left

though, that doesn't change the fact that it pains me how long i've been here honestly

i've changed my major two times overall ,, and like. i went through periods in earlier years where i succumbed to deeper depressions + i was unreasonably apathetic tbh cuz i was balancing a job in the midst of college , and i wasn't used to that kind of pressure

plus like. even as of recently i've gone through my fair share of course registration conflicts and. have had bad information given to me by advisors that. as a result misled me over what i was actually supposed to be registering for ..

but remedies are being attempted

things can get better

okay anyway um. recent gaming ishes .... i guess i've been playing "Nubby's Number Factory" and like. yeah honestly it's cool lol ..... i love the aesthetic for it but. idk lol there are a few stressful moments here and there . tho overall it's like. fun and stuff .. i can get behind its lil gimmicks

i've also been trying to play "Mabinogi" more lately cuz ... yk ... sometimes really mindful over that

and waiiiiit i realize i neglected to talk about some other gaming related things in my last few posts so. i'll go over those now lol

one: i reeeeeally need to read "HEARTLOVEPOWERTEMPLE" ok i've had this thing downloaded on my computer for a few weeks at this point but. i juuust haaaaven't read it yet ...

two: i read this one kinetic novel called "Hello Girl" by the dev/pub "Imo Team" in like earlier november and. dude it was so beautiful. i felt the tears building up underneath my eyelids when i was wrapping that story up

three: i did like. an unexpected steam game haul on the 19th of november . where i bought , okay i already talked about "Mosa Lina" before and. yep still really love that game it's so good ... but on that same day i also bought "eXceed: Gun Bullet Children" which SUCKED and was unplayable tbh ... but ykw i just remembered there's like. a community patch for that game that i should get my hands on to make it more playable ... i won't fully discredit its jank. um. i also bought "eXceed 3rd: Jade Penetrate Black Package" ... which was better than the last thing i brought up . and finally i got this one game called . "Blue Revolver" . which i hadn't played much of tbh but i remember it reminded me of like. a cave shmup like "DoDonPachi" and "Mushihimesama" ... which i thought was special ... so , .. overall this haul was very much bullet hell centric

okay that's that ... aaaand on an unrelated note . i ordered these two things off amazon cuz ... yk ... recent sales and stuff . and i'm like , so satisfied ... u can see them in the attachments of this post

i wishlisted this miku book a while ago and. only recently remembered that like, hey yeah this was a thing that i wanted

this katamari disc i've been wanting for aaaaages though you have no idea

but now i have these and. goodness i'm contented

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